The past week

Davis is getting so big...he now has five teeth, two on bottom and three on top. He is learning to crawl and probably in some people's standards he is actually crawling. He can get where ever he wants to go. Its so adorable to see him get up on his knees and rock back and forth and sometimes he even gets all the way up on his toes.
This last weekend Tom and Dean took him up to Clarion for dinner at Grandma and Grandpa Moore's for Andrea's birthday. I was not able to go because Cayden and Carson had a spring program at church that we went to. It was nice to come home with just the two older boys, we just hung out and I was able to get some unimteruppted cleaning time well a couple hours anyway.
We also had a garage sale this weekend...I made $421 SWEET!! I am going to use the money to buy some furniture for the deck, but the weather has been so crappy this week that I have not even gone out to look, the rain is so dreary I dont even feel like it will ever be summer.
Another random thought and update. Both my mom and dad have gotten engaged. Not really sure how I feel about it...well actually scratch that. I know exactly how I feel about that. It sucks. I am actually happy for my dad and Ellen. Even though this is the woman he cheated on my mom with, obviously they love each other. They have been together for many years and waited for each other to get divorced and now are making the step to become married themselves. Now what I dont like about it is that she has two younger children 8th grade and 5th grade along with a few older children, she is my dads age. Now I do not like the fact that my dad will likely be much more invovled with these children than he EVER was with us. I know that he loves me and always will BUT I cannot help but feel extreme jealousy over this and I will admit it. It just does not seem fair that I always craved/yearned to have a close relationship with my dad but simply never had it due to him working alot/being stressed and just generally not knowing how to connect with his children. He is in a different spot in his life now and able to provide the kind of love and attention that I always wanted. He is making efforts to really try to be there more for me now but it is still greatly lacking. I hope one day it will be something better. He told me the other day on the phone that he promised to be there more for me when Ellen and he get married and she lives here and he won' t be gone all the time. I felt so happy when he said it but now after talking with Tom about it I realized...why not now? Why not be here for me now? Your here during the week you can come over more you can spend the time with your ONLY Grandchildren. One day...
Now on to my mom...I honestly do not think she has any idea what she is doing. She has jumped into this relationship feet first...full on mad love right away with this man...Larry. (Or as we like to call him L-Dog, Laren or Karry). I had met him like twice before they decided to get engaged. The first encounter was at a picnic with my Aunt Marian and Jason and Kelly. My kids were with me and really did not or were not even really aware that my mom and dad had gotten divorced. And she has this man there introduces us to him and then proceeds to straddle him on the park bench and make out with him in front of all of us. I was about ready to go over and drop kick the motherfucker for touching my mom then realized it was just as much her doing it as it was him. Then I just got pissed, I mean come on have a little respect for us and if not for us (you know we are adults we should be able to handle it) then at least for Cayden and Carson who have no fucking clue who this dude is. Of course who has to answer the questions...me obviously...and that is what should happen since I am their mom and need to explain these things, but who is there to help me understand this?
Well needless to say he rules her life...everything pretty much revolves around "Larry" I put quotes around his name because that means I am being sarcastic, I can't even say his name with out full on contempt. He took my mom from me....I still need her...and I don't even get to because she is always with him. And now I struggle with the guilt of knowing my mom is happy but feeling just really pissed about it. Not that this is the main reason but she has babysat Davis like three times in the last 8 months. I mean come on...you live three block away from the sweetest baby ever and she rarely comes to see him even during the week....she ususally goes about 2 weeks between seeing him. That is ridiculous. Nevertheless she has two other freaking AWESOME Grandchildren that she is totally missing out on...they are only little ONCE and you are not seeing them grow up day to day like a Grandma that is able to should.
I recently asked her to watch the boys on Tuedays so Tom and I can go to Amigo's and I am going to play Volleyball. She agreed to this so I am now calling them "Grandma Tuesday's" I guess if she is not going to make the effort to be a part of their lives on her own I will force her.
I am sure that there will be more to come on this topic but I have to get to an appointment with one of my clients.