Thursday, April 30, 2009

I do realize it has been awhile...I went on a bit of a hiatus so to say...we had some things happen that I did not really emotionally want to deal with on the computer because then that means I would actually have to re-hash it again. It has been long enough now that I can write about it, kinda, it will be quick because I will never forget it and dont really need to read about it again.
Shortly after I returned to work I had to work a fundraiser on a Saturday. When I came home I noticed Davis' head was swollen on the side, I took him to the ER, they did not find anything but a Hemotoba (bruise) took him back Monday because it was still swollen I was not happy with the diagnosis. They took another CAT scan, extremely long story short, he had a skull fracture. Tom swears he has no idea what happened. My thought is that he was drinking and dropped Davis and has either A.) Blocked it from his memory or B.) Is too scared to tell me. DHS investigated me...I can't even believe I have to type this. It was the WORST experience of my life to date. Everything ended up being ok, there were no charges, no long term damage for Davis. I took him to the Childrens hospital in Des Moines where they did a full skelatal exam and it all ended up being ok. But what is not ok is that Tom had no explanation. I do not think I will ever forgive him for not telling me what happened, even the truth as bad as it may sound is better to me than acting like he has no idea. If he would have told me right away I could have told DHS what happened and there probably would not have been an investigation done. The main reason for the investigation is because it was unexplained which therefor looks suspicious. DUH?! I work in this field. Anyway they did what they were supposed to do. I ever since have had to now monitor Tom. I have had many talks with him about drinking. He was not allowed (by me) to be alone with Davis if I had ANY suspicions at all that there was alcohol in the house. Sad huh that I have to worry about shit like that. I still to this day will hide any alcohol from him if he will be alone with Davis (unless its just a couple beers) ((hmm...sad again that I even said that)) Truth be told Tom has a problem, it needs to be dealt with, and it is sort of right now. I want to make sure that this is done the right way and he is able to come to the realization he needs to figure some shit out in his life and realize what is most important and stop relying on drugs or alcohol for that relief from what ever issues he is dealing with. He has stopped taking Xanax (Thank God) and cut down on his drinking alot. But he does still have a long way to go. I will stand by him as long as possible if not forever as long as he continues to grow and continues to improve. I by no means will EVER allow my children to be put in harms way and I make sure above all else that my babies come first both that they are emotionally and physically safe. Tom loves the boys with all his heart and I know that, he will be get there one day he will be the man I know he can be.

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